As embarrassed as I am to admit this, I have a confession.
At times I struggle with gratitude. Sometimes despite knowing that I have so much to be grateful for, despite wholeheartedly declaring my gratitude time and time again, there are days when I find that my actions say anything but “thank you” and I just don’t feel thankful.
As a mother who strives to cultivate a spirit of gratitude in my own children it’s difficult to come to terms with this fact.
One of my biggest gripes I have at home is when my children, even my spouse, seem ungrateful—when I feel like I’ve given my heart and soul to fulfill a need (or want), and rather than a thank you I get groans, complaints or even silence. It can be a heartache when don’t feel appreciated after we sacrifice dreams, time, finances, career advancement for something we desperately believe in, when we give so much up to be able to give the very best of ourselves to our loved ones.
Yet the reality is, in the grand scheme of things, I know that my family is grateful. It’s just that sometimes those feelings of gratitude can get lost in the murky waters of excess or personal struggles or the feeling that something just isn’t enough.
To admit that even I struggle to give thanks is humbling and eye-opening. And I can’t help but wonder if my Heavenly Father feels the same ache I feel when my children aren’t thankful.
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