{our hands a few months back (she was sleeping! I was savoring!)}
Sometimes I think about the day when she will no longer reach for my hand the way she has over these past few years. In a crowded store or amusement park, when we cross the street and in the middle of the night and comes to my room and pulls back the covers getting as close as she can as she wraps my arm around her quickly growing body. This morning when she wakes up she wants to watch TV before we eat and get dressed for church. She’s smart. She asks daddy and he hands her the remote and gets up to let the dog out. Then it’s just us. Me and her. Like it used to be before we met our prince charming.
I look at her. Eyes glued to the TV. “Can I hold your hand? I ask like an infatuated teenager hesitant to make the first move.
“Yes” she says. Eyes still glued.
I reach over and she reaches back. Our fingers lock together and we squeeze gently. For a moment she glances at me and smiles. We lay there holding hands. Her eyes glued and my eyes watery. Her hand fits perfectly in mine and she holds it sometimes on her own and sometimes just because her mama asked her to. Her small fingers and hands although not as small as they once were are the fingers and hands my mommy dreams were and continue to be made of. I never want to forget what this feels like. They joy something so little as a small hand resting in my gives me. The fact that such a sweet moment can move this mama to tears. Happy tears. Grateful tears. Longing tears. Praying for moments like these to keep coming. I think about the day when she may not want to hold hands anymore. I hope it will never come but regardless I’m hanging on to this moment and to ensure that I don’t forget I write.
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awwwww… this made me tear up a bit. You described PERFECTLY what I feel for my youngest daughter right now as I try to hold on to every last perfect moment before she no longer wants to share them so readily with me….
debi9kids recently posted..what infidelity does to a woman
Thank you. Just like you I am trying to savor all the special moments and keep hoping that they continue :)
We don’t ever want to think of those days. But they will come. The good thing is? I’m pretty sure they come back after our kids realize once again, that we are super cool for having raised them ;)
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Ha! I hope they do. We are certainly the coolest :)
Hoping those days don’t come quite so fast! Thanks Molly!
I agree with Molly! I haven’t yet been blessed with babies, but as my mother’s youngest daughter I will tell you, there is little else in the world I treasure more than my mother’s hand in mine. Her cheek pressed to mine when we say hello, or the rare opportunities to curl up next to each other on the sofa to watch TV. Sometimes, even though I’m all grown up, a married woman myself, I can put my head in her lap and she’ll stroke my hair and I am in heaven.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece! I love Just Write. :-)
Trish recently posted..Maybe he misses Manhattan
Thank you Trish. Your comment made me smile and the image found in your words of you and your mother and the closely you feel to this day touched my heart. So beautiful so encouraging. I too love Just Write :)
Thank you again for your beautiful comment!
I think about this all the time with my six year old…he still grabs my hand here and there, but it’s less and less. So hard to let go!
Heather recently posted..Just Write ~ The Eleventh
So hard to let go but as long as she’s reaching I’m on standby :) Thanks Heather!
You just melted my heart with your words.
My daughter is still small enough that she sometimes reaches over and holds my hand when we watch a movie together, and it is the sweetest moment.
Tracie recently posted..Peace Like An Iceberg
That is the sweetest moment. I love when they reach for us. It’s so precious and heart warming. Love that!
It’s like you can read my mind. I try to memorize every moment because I know they are so fleeting! Such a beautiful post. <3
TheWorkingMomaholic recently posted..HWW Countdown
Thank you so much! It’s hard not to try to hold on to every memory we can! Seems everything happens and changes so quickly. Here’s to making the most of the time we do have ;)
Kris,
I may not come over every day (and I’m sorry about that), but I always want to see what you have posted for Just Write! I love your word pictures! I like how you want to savor the moment, trying not to think too hard of the future or longing for the past. Just enjoying right now!
Gianna recently posted..I’ve got no time to be cool
I’m certainly trying!! Thank you so much for stopping by! Regardless of how often it is I’m grateful and appreciate your support and kind words! Always.
This is an absolutely amazing post, really touching and the way you pick the words is really impressive ! Very beautiful !
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Thank you!